days like this

I've been emotional all day long.

Probably a combination of a lot of things,

Between my body being a brat, being emotional over the Boxer at my in-laws house being super sick and close to death, being so damn lonely all day since Ruben crashed out as early as he did, and sick and tired of the heat already, and it's nowhere near the heat of summer, I just wanna curl up in a little ball and sleep it all away today, heh.  Been super super exhausted the last little while, and just doing too much I'm sure.  It's summer, and it's hard to keep the girls occupied when I can't even come CLOSE to keeping up with them.  Got a lot planned this month. Some fun things with the girls.  Some fun adult things.  And then some small jobs for friends to make a little extra spending money - which is a HUGE deal right now, haha.  Being broke in the summer is BORING!.

But anyway

It could be worse, I'm sure.  There's always something waiting on the sidelines to come kick you when you fall and stay there too long.  So I've made it a point to always get up when I fall down now.  I used to wallow in the frustration or pain or whatever.  At least I've outgrown that, haha.  So we make the most of what we have, and do the best we can, and that's all we can really ask of ourselves right?

This month we are going to Soonercon, I'm helping my friend on base get ready for their big move to Alaska, and HOPEFULLY getting a few more contacts over on base so we can keep that extra money coming in whenever possible, and helping a friend with his house too.  We will make at least one trip, if not a few more trips, to the zoo for story time - and probably way back wednesday too (which is AWESOME! - it's only a buck to get in the gate for non passholders, and you get dollar snacks at the concession stand and dollar sea lion shows).  HOPEFULLY we can get the kids together for a trip over there, cause I know it's gonna be hard this next year when Ivy doesn't have either of her best friends at the school with her. :(  Although she is pretty awesome and I'm sure she will make MORE friends that she will come home talking about.  Just have to see though, haha.  If nothing else, one of them is still SUPER close, and another isn't all that far away either, so they can hang out on the weekends or something like that. 

Then next month we will have the fourth to look forward to (although we probably won't be able to do TOO much because it's on a Thursday and Ruben has to work).  Pacific Rim drops next month.  And our friends from Texas are coming up too, so I'm sure we will get together to do something one day she's here.  Then at SOME point, I've gotta get Desi to the doc to get the rest of her shots, and then come the start of August I'll get Ivy enrolled for 4th grade, and Desi for Kindergarten.  OMG that's gonna be SOOO weird!!!  Not having either girl at home, I'm gonna be completely bored, haha.  Gonna have to find something to do with my day while they are in school.  Maybe find a part time job that I can work during school hours (if my body will keep up), or take some classes, or SOMTHING!  haha.  Guess I'll see what happens when that time actually comes.  Still, WEIRD>

For right now though, it's time to make dinner and wake Ruben up.  Then I might sit and draw a little more.  Trying to get a lot of the frustration I've got pent up in my head out today, and drawing seems to be helping.  *Shrug* we will see.  If nothing else, I'll pull my actually pen and paper journal back out and do some ACTUAL writing.  Been doing a lot of THAT lately too. 

Hope everyone is enjoying their summer so far!

LOVE YOU GUYS!

Lynz