9 - what's in your bag
Well, this one is kinda boring today, haha. Now, if it had fallen on a Sunday it would have been different. But today all that's in my bag is my wallet and my sunglasses. *shrug* guess it could be even more boring and have NOTHING in it, haha.
Now, Sunday I have my notebook full of art pages, notebook paper, and drawing paper. I have the newspaper. I have snacks and drinks. I have my tablet, the cell phone, my wallet, my sun glasses, my e-cig stuff, and usually a few more things. And it's all there cause we go spend a few hours doing boring old laundry at the in-laws and I need something to keep myself occupied, haha. LATERS
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10 - This week.
we, we will just go through the days for ya. Nothing FUN going on this week. But lots of me trying to pay it forward (well, two days at least, haha)
Sunday was laundry, and boring as ever. I swear, Someone needs to invent something that will do laundry all the way from sorting through folding and putting it up for you, haha. I HATE LAUNDRY. But ya know, it could be worse. Thanks to the in-laws it's not as bad as it could be. We get to do it for free. I get to sit around in the house watching movies and doing things I want to do. And the girls get to run around and get some of their crazy energy off without me having to follow them all damn day. And then we come home and spend the evening with Ruben before his work week starts up again and the school week starts.
Monday we didn't really do much either. Got the girls off to school, and then Ruben went to bed pretty eary. And then I went and got the groceries for the rest of the month (we are cleaning out the pantry, so there wasn't really a whole lot to get - which is good cause we was almost out of funds for groceries, haha) Then came home and watched a movie till time for the girls to get home. Then I took a nap, which felt nice.
Tuesday I took the girls to school, and then went up to te way north side of the city to help my friend unpack again. We managed to get his office done last week, and then this week we cleared out the boxes that were in the front entry way. I think now it's just a matter of getting things to put everything on. So I ran him up to Walmart and we picked up two bookshelves so he can use them to put his movies and music and stuff on in the living room. :) Should look good when he's done with it. And I told him if he wants some help putting everything up and organizing it to just let me know cause I'm good at that too. :)
Today we didn't do anything, and it was wonderful, haha. I took the girls to school, and then we kinda straightened up a few places in the house. Then we went and tried the new parmasean (sp) chicken sandwich from Burger king since I had a buy one get one coupon. Then came home and watched some CSI while Ruben installed Windows 7 on the computer. :) Hooray for updating the computer, haha. And then I ran Ivy some more medicine and came home and took a good 2 hour nap. AHHH. Some days that's the best thing huh? Didn't even wake up feeling too bad. Although I've got a headache that just won't die. Oh well, I'll survive.
Tomorrow will probably be a lot like today. Cleaning house and relaxing. The house isn't BAD, it's just cluttered and things need to find their places again. So that'll be the goal for tomorrow. :) Might even take a good long bath. And then a good long nap again. It's nice to get to sleep next to Ruben without the girls MOM MOM MOMming me to death, haha. :p
Friday morning Ruben and I'll have a couple hours, and then I'm gonna go out and help another friends family clean their house. It's even further away than the guy I've been helping unpack, so I'll leave early enough to get there as close to noon as possible (when they will be there to unlock) and then make sure I leave as close to 2 as possible - if it takes that long - so I can be back well before the girls get out of school. And then we might do something with the girls that evening.
Saturday is gonna be a good family day. Nothing planned. Nowhere we HAVE to go. So get some good time doing things we want to do with the family. :)
And that's this week, haha. This weekend is a 4 day weekend, so Monday and Tuesday I'll find something for the girls and I to go do - maybe with their friend if she's not doing anything that day. Just have to see.
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I'm excited for some stuff that's coming up this next little while.
Next Friday Ruben and I are gonna go see RIPD. :) Looks good, so I guess we will see. But it'll be nice to get to go on a DATE and not have to worry about when we have to pick the kids up from the baby sitter, or having to pay them either, haha.
It's hard to believe my Ivy girl will be 10 a week from tomorrow!!!! OMG, I'm not ready for a kid in double digits, haha. Guess it could be worse - she could be a *gasp* teenager, lol. But still. So we are trying to find something to do with her where her friends can actually make it. Speaking of which, I might call Ruben's job and see if we can use the emerald room at his hotel. If not, we might do the park again. Just have to see what the weather is supposed to do next weekend.
And HOPEFULLY sometime soonish we can save up the money to make the trip down to Arkansas to see our newest addidition. Visit with the family, see the baby, and hang out for a while. Only thing I have to say is I hope we can afford to go down ourselves, because - while I love the fact mom and dad and Whit were gonna help us come down - their rules for paying our way were a little hard to deal with. They want us to spend all the time we are down there with them, and stay and go to the meeting on Sunday. There are quite a few things wrong with that. The first being I wanna see other friends too!!! Damnit, we don't get down there very often so it's not fair to force us to spend every minute with you. The second is having to stay and go to the meeting. That keeps Ruben from coming, cause he has to work Sunday night and has to sleep sunday. And that would put me getting home too late to get laundry done too. So it's just not really going to work for us. And it irritates me that they are guilt tripping me about the whole thing. I know you wanna see me. I know you want us to go to the meeting. I know that. I really do, believe me. But things just don't work that way for us. We have other responsibilities that have to be taken care of too. We can't just drop everything and change everything because you want us to do things your way. So yeah. At least if we pay our own way we can visit without having to change everything. We could come down on a Friday and hang out. Then spend Saturday with the family and come home Saturday afternoon. That way Ruben could still sleep, and I'd still have Sunday afternoon to get everything I need to get done for the week done without having to rush. JUST GRRR! I love you guys, but that's just not fair.
I guess we will find out with that too. It may not happen. Sadly, I feel like we are growing more and more apart with each passing year because I'm not willing to do everything they want me to do. I'm sorry that I'm not your perfect daughter. I'm sorry that I never will be because I've made my choice. I just wish that you could accept me for that. But with the way certain other family members are, it really doesn't surprise me. It hurts like a BITCH though. :( I just wish they could accept me for who I am, and not for who they want to change me back into. I'm not your little girl who does whatever you say anymore. I've made my choices, and I live my life based on those choices. And I KNOW that those choices have certain bad things attached to them in your eyes. And I'm sorry. But I don't believe that way. And then even if it IS that way, then I'll be dead. I won't know about what I'm supposedly missing, because I won't be awake. Now, don't get me wrong, it's hard saying that because in the back of my mind there's all the "what if"s ya know? What if I AM wrong. What if there will be paradise on earth and all that jazz. But truthfully, I'm not sure I'd want to live there. With the same people for ETERNITY? Doing the same things over and over and over. There's only so much you can do on this earth - even as a perfect human. Only so many times you can climb the same mountains and swim in the same oceans and all that jazz. Yeah, it might take a thousand years before you've done them all - but what about the rest of INFINITY that you'll be spending there? I'm just not sure that's something that I want to do. And I'm sorry that isn't want you want to hear. I'm sorry I'm not who you want me to be. Just do me a favor, and stop guilt tripping me because I'm going my own way? Please? I don't judge you for being who you are, even though I don't truly agree with most of the things you guys do. I accept you for who you are, just the way you are. Please, please, please, do the same for me? Isn't that what TRUE LOVE really is?
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Ok, now on with a less depressing topic, haha.
Sorry that went on as long as it did. I hate writing about that kind of thing because it really breaks my heart that so many people judge me for not being the person they want me to.
But I do have the most amazing friends in the world. And my family really is good with everything except the religion thing. They've always been there for me through thick and thin (at least since I've grown up and moved out of the house and they didn't have to put up with my drama on a daily basis, haha)
I'm looking for more ways to pay our blessings forward.
We've had so many people the last month and a half come out of the woodwork to help us. Help with school supplies, school clothes, cars, etc. Things that we could not have done on our own. And I can't say thank you enough. And they don't want anything in return. So i've decided to pay it forward. I just have NO CLUE what to do TO pay it forward. If you're reading this, and you have ANY ideas - no matter how small, or how silly - please let me know.
THANKS
Ok, I'm out of here. Gonna watch some more CSI and try to relax.
LATERS! :)
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