23 things you want to say to an ex
There isn't much that I'd say to most of my exes. And not because there aren't things that COULD be said, but because there are reasons we really don't discuss our relationships and why they ended. Ya know? Life has moved on, and I'd like to keep it that way, so we just don't go there.
BUT, I do have things that I'd say. So I am gonna write them down here, and finally get them off my mind, cause I do think about them sometimes
Not gonna list names, because that doesn't matter. Just gonna write, and if you know them, keep it quiet, and we can just snicker about it later, haha.
1 - You were a great first boyfriend. I still have the stuffed cat you got me, and my girls love playing with it. But you were a little clingy, and things weren't good when we were together. It was hard for me to be in a relationship with ANYBODY, and you just got the brunt of it
2 - You were CRAZY, and always made me smile. You were always fun to hang around with in school, and after I graduated, you helped me get the job that I'd wanted for a long time. We had some really good times, but life took us in different directions. I still think you're a great guy, and I'm proud of you for all you've done with your life since graduating high school, even if you don't feel like you're worthy of that. :) I hope we see each other again sometime. I'd love to meet your family.
3 - You were there for me though a lot of crazy shit. We didn't date for long, and distance ultimately drove us apart, but I loved every second of time we spend together. I still consider you one of my very best friends, and I'm sure if we ever got to hang out again it'd be like we'd hung out every day. Just know that I am sorry if I hurt you. I never meant to do that. I am proud of everything you've done with your life too. And I hope we can hang out the next time I'm in town. :) Maybe.
And those are the only exes I care enough about to say anything about, haha. Yeah, I know, kinda sad truly that I have that many huh? But that's my dating life in a nutshell, and now I'm with Ruben and have a wonderful family, and I wouldn't change a thing. Love my little family.
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I have a lot on my mind, but I can't seem to truly catch any of it. That seems to happen a LOT lately. Probably the season or something. All I know for sure is that it's ANNOYING, haha. But that's my life. These are the things I CAN catch.
This week has been pretty interesting. Ruben has gone to bed early both days, and I've had quite a bit of ME time to fill. Yesterday I went to run errands, and then had a couple hours to watch movies and relax. And Today I had to go get groceries, and then I had a LOT of time to myself, haha. Not that it's really a bad thing. I made a little desk organizer out of foamboard, haha. Been doing a LOT of things like that for organization around the house. Making little shelves for the models and little stuff in my room, the desk organizer for beside the couch. And I've got a few more things I wanna try to make the next few days. Wanna make a little storage thing with some actual little drawers that fit to hold little things for the desk, or for beside the bed, or bathroom, or something like that. Just enjoy making them, and it's fun and CHEAP. AND it helps keep my house organized better, lol.
Friday we are going to FINALLY have date day. And I swear, if he schedules ANYTHING other than that, I'm gonna KICK HIM! No, seriously, we've tried to do this for THREE WEEKS already, and every week something has come up. So this week it's gonna happen. AND, we've got the extra funds to do it with. :) I've got a little from a friend, he's gonna get paid for some commission work he's been doing, AND he's gonna go mow for the guy he mows for too. So we will have enough to go out to eat, maybe rent a movie or two, and just enjoy time together. I swear though, it better happen. We haven't been able to truly enjoy all the time we've had together yet, so it's gonna happen!!! lol.
And then Friday night is Family night at the zoo. It's for members only, and they have a lot of perks for everyone. Free sea lion show, free admission to sting ray bay, free rides, and keeper chats. So it'll be fun, and it'll be kool too cause one of our friends has her pass too and will be there. So the kids can hang out, and Ruben and I will have someone to talk to too. :) So that'll be fun.
Soon I'm gonna start cleaning on a regular basis for a friend of mine, so that'll be nice to have a little extra spending money on occasion. And to get me out of the house, haha. And then I've got another friend that I'm gonna clean for once a month I think, maybe more (or less) once the baby gets here, but it'll be nice to help them out. And I've been trying to find some other small cleaning jobs to do for extra money and to kill time when I can. So if you hear of anything in the OCK area, please let me know.
Now, gonna talk about something that's a bit touchy. So just bear with me, or leave
It's about my family
You've been warned, haha
My little sister just had another baby. She's three weeks old tomorrow. Well, my mom and dad said they'd help me come down to visit and see the new baby - BUT there were rules. I had to come down on a Saturday, and stay Saturday night. I had to spend all the time we were there with them (so no seeing Cassie, Ashley, or anybody else), and go to the meeting Sunday afternoon. Now, I love them. I really do. And I'd LOVE to take them up on that if things were a little different. But they aren't. First, Ruben wouldn't be able to come because he has to sleep on Sunday - and he wouldn't really be able to get enough sleep while we were there. Second, I do laundry on Sunday afternoons, so I wouldn't be able to do that (unless I did it Saturday while I was there, and I really don't want to spend time I'm supposed to be spending with family doing laundry) And then the meeting isn't until 1pm. If I stayed the whole time, It'd get over at 3. And then i'd still have to go back to the house and change and then drive back. It is AT LEAST 2.5 hours to get back - So I probably wouldn't be back until 6ish or so. And Ruben usually gets up early on Sunday. So it would throw EVERYTHING off. Now, I'd be perfectly happy to come down on a Friday after the girls got out of school and spend the evening with them, and then spend quite a while on Saturday with them before coming back home. That way Ruben could stay up Saturday night and have game night, and I'd be able to still do everything I needed to do on Sunday. But that doesn't seem good enough for them. And it SUCKS! I wanna see the baby. I wanna hang out with family. But at the same time - to deny me the ability to do both of those because of the other rules just breaks my heart. HOPEFULLY I can come up with a way to come down and see everyone before the end of the year. I don't know if it will happen or not, but I'm gonna do my best.
Ok, think that's all I can get ahold of right now.
So I'm gonna get off the comp and go do something else for a couple hours. LATERS! :)
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