Better

Sorry if this post is a bit rambly.  My brain has been manic as hell for the majority of the week, so yeah, haha.

 

Ever just wanted life to be..... better.

 

Not that things are bad, by any means.  We have a roof over our heads, food in our stomach, clothes on our backs, wonderful friends, and amazing family.  We have a car that runs much better than either of the two before it.  Life is by no means bad.  I truly can't complain.

 



But sometimes I just want more.  I want my seasonal depression to leave me the hell alone.  I want the MS to go away - even though I know it won't.  I wanna find something that makes me excited again - instead of just going through the motions.  And yeah, I know that this happens every single year about this time - so I'm not really even concerned, haha. 

 

This month has been kinda crazy, haha.  Between Ivy's birthday and party, finding out my sis in law is preggers - and pretty far along for her (she hasn't ever really had luck because her body hates her), Not being able to make the trip to Arkansas we want to make because we is BROKE broke and for family to pay for the trip we'd have to do things that Ruben can't do, and all the crazy school stuffs - I just want it to slow down.  At least the month is almost over - even though I'm sure the DHS fucked up our food stamps again and we are gonna have to come off some cash to get us through until they get it fixed.  (For the record, I SERIOUSLY hate having to have food stamps - but without them we wouldn't be able to make it. GRR)  I guess we will find out on that one.  Although, for now I'm not super worried about it.  We've got some extra money coming in for the next little while that will help make ends meet when life tries to keep them apart, lol. 

 

Today we had to replace the serpentine belt in the car.  Not SUPER expensive, but it was money we really didn't have.  Thank goodness we can make it work, cause we would have been screwed if we didn't.  It was starting to act really icky, and my luck it would have stranded me one of these times I was out by myself cleaning, or doing something on the north side of town where it would have taken someone FOREVER to get to me.  So this way we are sure that it's not going to die on me, heh.  :)  YAY!  And truthfully, it wasn't that expensive, so we got it.  Could have been MUCH worse.

 

We got a Sams Club membership.  Makes me happy, lol.  We will be able to buy things for the MONTH for the same price as it would cost us normally for two weeks - so that's going to be a HUGE help.  Heck, it's already paid for itself.  Between the $49 shirt I got for $15, and the groceries we've picked up - that $45 expense has been covered.  So that's going to be a really good thing.  We've been talking about it for a while now, so it's about time we got it taken care of - ya know?  Although it was supposed to be HIS JOB that was paying for it instead of us.  HOPEFULLY they will pay us back for it.  Not betting on it, but that would be fantastic.  Ready for the first trip there with our food stamps.  Being able to pick up things in bulk will be fantastic, lol 

 

Tomorrow I refuse to do anything, lol..  Gonna stay home with Ruben and play some Lego Batman 2 and relax.  :)  Then just stay around the house and clean things up.  Probably should have cleaned up a bit today, but I just don't feel like it.

 

Then Wednesday I'm gonna spend first thing in the AM with Ruben, and then at 12:30 I'm gonna go up and help the Art Teacher with her classroom.  :)  She's got a closet of doom, lol.  It's pretty crazy unorganized in there, so I'm gonna go up and help her get that organized.  Even if we don't get it done Wednesday, I'll find another day or two go to up and help her out.  I've wanted to help out up at the school, but I don't have time to help both the girls homeroom teachers.  So this way, I'll be able to help a teacher that they both have, and not have to be up there all day to do it, haha.  And I really like her.  She reminds me a lot of my art teachers in school, and we get along GREAT. :)

 

Then Thursday and Friday I'm gonna focus on the house and hanging out with Ruben. 

 

Sat is OKC wars.  So maybe Friday we can play a couple games to help me work on my strategy so MAYBE I won't die, haha.  I actually did pretty good last time, so Hopefully we can figure a few things out and make it better.  I know I had a really good time last war, so hopefully this will be as much fun. :)

 

For now though, I'm going to go cook dinner. We are having Curried rice and chicken.  Quick and easy and YUMMY. :) 

 

Anyway, LATERS

LYZ