A few more of the 50 things, plus some rambling

32 what you wore today

 

Sadly, today I didn't really wear anything interesting, haha.  It was a stay at home and relax kind of day, so I spent the vast majority of the day lounging around in my pjs and a spaghetti strap shirt. I did put jeans on to take the girls to school and pick them up, but that's it, haha.  Yeah, I know, Such an exciting life I lead huh?

 

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33 your zodiac/ horoscope and if you think it fits your personality

 

AQUARIUS

 The humanitarians of the Zodiac, the Aquarius are inventive and modern individuals. Honest truth-seekers, they are broad-minded and creative people. The new, novel and modern have a magnetic allure in the amiable Aquarius’ world. Friendly, gregarious, candid, the Aquarius are popular people in their circles. No wonder they have innumerable friends! However, the truth is that the Aquarius may have many acquaintances, they may not be really close to anyone in particular. In fact, they may be quite detached and changeable.

 

Ask anybody who knows me, and they will tell you that's pretty darn accurate, haha.  Absolutely open-minded, artistic, and only a few really close friends.  I am an artist.  A lover not a fighter, but I will certainly fight for what I believe in.  I do my best to be friendly to everyone I meet, sometimes to a fault (even when they treat me like shit I still try to befriend them).  And it's taken a LONG time to come to terms with the fact that I can't make everyone happy, no matter how hard I try. 

 

So yeah, it fits me.  VERY well.

 

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Now on to random ramblings

 

This has been one of those days where my brain hasn't exactly been on my side.  It's forgetting things that I need to remember, and remembering things I need to forget.  It's making me feel bad for things I can't control.  It has me homesick and hell, and emotional as hell.  It has me stressing about things I can't control or change.  And feeling bad for others when there is nothing I can really do or say to change the situation they are in either.  It's frustrating, and exhausting, and I just want it to stop.  haha.  Yeah, I know, Not that easy.  But hey, a girl can dream.

 

Today has been one of those days where my body hates me, and I hate it too, lol.  My legs will be FINE one minute, and the next they go "dead" and don't wanna do ANYTHING but hurt like hell.  And it's frustrating because there's not a whole lot I can do about that when it does happen cause it is - as I've taken to laughing about - all in my head.  Yeah, some of the pain can be taken away with painkillers, and I do take them to take the edge off - but it never goes all the way away.  Even my GOOD days I still hurt.  I need to get to the doc, but we are broke as a joke so I can't currently afford it.  But at least the meds I have right now work for what's going on.  There's just a LOT going on that frustrates me with my body.  I hope to find the money and time to get it truly taken care of SOON.  Just have to see what happens though.

 

Tomorrow is payday - thank goodness, haha.  Cause we are currently sitting at just over a dollar in the bank.  ONE DOLLAR!  Yeah, I hate when that happens too.  Especially when some of the funds we were expecting don't come through to help supplement.  HOPEFULLY I'll start the new housecleaning job I've got booked so we can have a LITTLE money coming in.  It will be nice to have a little extra money to pay for gas and stuff coming in.  Just have to see what comes through and what doesn't.  I know Ruben has some funds coming in over the next little while for some commission painting he's doing, so that'll be nice - long as it comes through.  And then I'm supposed to help a friend pack and get ready to move, and then clean the house once it's done.  SO that has the potential to bring in some good money.  If he can afford it.  If not, I'll probably still help.  He's helped us out so much that It would be nice to pay it back a little, ya know?  Just have to see.

 

Right now, I gotta get off the comp and actually get things done.  Gonna make spaghetti for dinner, clean the living room, and then wake Ruben up.  So I'm out.  LATERS!